PANHANDLE

Mengerti namun tidak bisa menerima.
Tidak mengerti tentu tidak bisa menerima.
Bukan tidak mengerti, tapi tidak mengerti.
Mengerti, menerima.
Tidak ada.

It’s just another pain you put. And like usual, it’s me let well enough alone. I don’t blame you because that way you and I only try my best to understand.

Embittering just becomes our way to face this through and somehow, you feel its okay and absolutely you just enjoy it.

On the other side, I learn much.

You don’t know how deep you strike fire into heart. You don’t know and you don’t want to know. You deafened your ears on me. You make light of me, my things, and my virtues.

I don’t even know why you turn to be like this. Your reason sounds very trite and I don’t think that was a reason from you. But, I don’t have any strength anymore. I placidly wait for a change. For us, if you deign.

A panhandle.

I come upon the town. I come upon the parish. For a kindness. For a goodness.

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s